I get this feeling from X posts that its not working in Game Development that is the problem.
I’ve had a job that I hated but it paid the bills comfortably I was grateful I had a nice Lady and good set of friends but my day job depressed me, I was becoming a very negative person and it started to creep into my thoughts that I need to change something but was to scared that another company, it might be worse etc…
My advice to you X is attempt to get a new job to support yourself, maybe even move to rent a different home (assuming you don’t own a house) and do your game development in your spare time till you release something and smile at the world because you made it against the odds of having a family and job! We all need something fresh in our lives, something that rocks the boat a bit.
I wish you good luck, the community is always here.