I can't get my head around it

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@Frostice100;328733

Hi,
i am 14 years old and since i love history make a nice atmosheric historical game (with a nice story,open World type)
i know thats a Project a Professional would do,maybe a whole team of professionals,i dont know if i can do it alone.
For months i am trying to learn blender,UE 4,gimp etc.
I know to write in C and i after i will be done with it start learning C++
The problem is that even if i help in a Project as a part of a team(which i would like to program)UE 4 has blueprints,plus for coding you’ll need visual studio
which i dont intend to pay every month.From the other hand i feel ‘blueprinting’ takes all the fun in game development (even if it is easier)
I also feel like i am in a dead end.The problem with me is that i want to make a game with fascinating graphics,but in blender i cant make a decent building and i dont even know how to make a Human yet
Well,even though i would mostly like to program,doing only that (in a team perhaps)i feel the game is not ‘mine’
Yes i hate doing 3D Modeling but in a game it looks fantastic is fantastic.
About,unreal engine,it has so many abilities that i cant get my head around it,texturing takes time,i need to learn better blueprint,i have some problems importing from blender without its texture
In blender i dont know how artist can do such things,i only know how to use some modifiers and i can build something but the models look like a 2000’s game
I’ve been mporting normal maps etc. from insanebump(a plugin of gimp) but i can barely make a realistic texture in UE 4
I know it needs time but i have so many things i want to do right now except programming,texturing etc. that i dont know if i am going to give up
Some people tell me that this is great projects that only teams with multiple professionals manage,and of course it takes some years
I just like making video games,before UE 4 i used to use unity but i didnt knew much about C#
I would’n like to have a career in game development its just a hobby,but i have many hobbies
That makes me (now that it is a school break for me) sometimes to try to learn something sitting on the computer most of the day and after a long day of wasting a lot of time of doing that i am so tired that i dont want to start anymore.In the other morning i believe i have some chances so i try again and again and again.I have no idea what to do.Some say to me to start by doing something small.I dont know if i even can do that.In the meanwhile i have many other hobbies like language learning,physics,mathematics etc. and all of this independently.
My life is a bit of a mess :):mad::)

Thanks in advance for reading all of this.

Oh I’ve been there before man. I’m only 18 as of writing this!
Just keep going, and don’t give up.

Now for some software recommendation!
For 3d modeling I suggest these programs:
Wings3d (It’s the easiest one out there! And it’s free!)
Blender (It’s good once you get the hang of it!)
Krita (A really easy to use photoshop… And it’s free!)

And take a look in the content creation area of the forum. And look under the free software.

Also, Visual studio has a free version… Just sayin. And, a good game does not require amazing art. Good gameplay first! So don’t go too crazy of art.
UE4 uses C++… So if this is the program you want, you should get working on that.

Hope that helps! (jamendxman is right. You need to break up paragraphs. Also, work on your spelling a little. you are on your way! :))

(And if you get sick of UE4… I can recommend some great free easier to use engines!)